Friday, July 16, 2004

My little girl

My little girl and I, along with my friend Rebecca, are flying to Louisville today to visit our dear friends Laurie and her son Jack. It will be Katie's first plane trip, obviously. As if she knew that today might be a hectic one, she slept over 9 hours in a row last night. Wish us luck! (If you read this before 1:00 p.m. central time, feel free to leave comments with any flying- with- babies tips you might have.)

Geoff took this picture of Katie the other day. Her happiness is so apparent that looking at this picture makes me teary.

My little girl is the happiest girl and the happiest girl is she
Originally uploaded by jessamyn8470.
She slept horribly last week. She kept waking up and crying, over and over, until later and later times. 11:00. 12:00. 1:00. 1:30. And then she'd wake up every couple of hours after that, too, crying each time. By the fifth night of this, she hadn't stayed asleep until 1:30 in the morning, and she'd woken up at 3:30 and refused to go back to sleep after I'd nursed her, because she wanted to play with us. All three of us were exhausted.

It was probably a combination of a lot of things. She is teething. She outgrew the car seat where she'd slept every night since she was born, and she now had to sleep on the vast and unsnuggly crib matteress. She had her four month check up and got another four shots. We had recently returned from a road trip - she slept so much in the car that she couldn't get to sleep at night.

She was so grumpy and so touchy, it was a delicate and difficult job to keep her from crying. At bedtime she would cry and cry no matter what we did - no matter how often we fed and rocked and held her. And so finally, after that fifth night, we decided that we would put her in the crib for the night, and we would let her cry for awhile.

All three of us cried that night. (I felt like I should cry the whole time she was crying, in sympathy and as a result of my own very real pain to know that she was so tired and unhappy.) But after awhile, she went to sleep, and she slept the longest she had slept in awhile. After she woke up to eat, she then went right back to sleep.

It was the best night's sleep she'd had in awhile, and when I looked in on her at 6:30 in the morning, she was lying on her back, kicking her legs in the air, cooing softly to herself. When she saw me she went wild with the "hey!" sounds she makes, and with arm and leg waving. She gave me a huge smile.

That was Monday night. The next night she didn't cry at all, and we didn't know what to think. Wednesday night she was back to crying for awhile. The crying was mostly fussing this time - she didn't sound like she was hurting, she just sounded like she was angry. It was easier to deal with, but I was still crying for her by the time she went to sleep.

And then last night? I put her in her crib, she said some irritable "hey! hey!"'s at us and she muttered to herself a little bit. She didn't cry. After about 15 minutes, we didn't hear anything else. Asleep at 8:45.

She didn't make another peep until 5:50 this morning.

I know there are a million opinions on whether you should ever let your baby cry if you can help it, and if you do, when?  For how long?  I don't know what's right.  But in the end, we decided that one long stretch of crying that results in a good night's sleep is less of an evil than eight or nine shorter stretches of crying that are interspersed with chunks of sleep no longer than two hours (and sometimes as short as 10 minutes).  I wouldn't presume to tell you what would work for your child. I don't know. I'm not even sure yet what works for mine. (But don't write me and tell me that you know better than I do, ok?)

When I went into her room this morning at 5:50, her little body practically writhed with glee. She was so content, so happy, so excited to meet the day.
It is overwhelming, how much I love her - how happy it makes me to see her so happy.

Parenting (already, even when your child is barely four months old) can be so hard. Of course, it's also (already, even when your child is barely four months old) amazingly wonderful.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

It's been a long time since I posted one of these self- portrait- in- the- car photos. I look about the same, though.


Push Button

It seems like it must have been very long ago that buttons to call elevators were this elaborate. But how long ago can it have been, since it was recent enough that elevators were already in existence?

This is from a building that is split in two - one half is the Cook County Building, the other half is City Hall. The details of the building are worthy of a whole series of photos.

Originally uploaded by jessamyn8470.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004


I like this picture. I don't really know why.
I took the picture even though the subject matter seemed kind of drab and boring, but when I first looked at the picture, I liked it. I've glanced at it a few more times today, and it's growing on me; I am a little bit fascinated by it (can you be a little bit fascinated?).

(And now I'm thinking it would be even better in black & white. Wouldn't it?)

S Stands For Schwinn
Originally uploaded by jessamyn8470.

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

The Baby Eats

Katie - as tall as an apartment building, and able to eat whole neighborhoods in a single bound!

(This weekend at the aquarium we met a woman and her 9 month old baby. The mother was pleased that her baby had reached 16 pounds at her 8 month checkup. We both laughed when I said that Katie had weighed 16 pounds at her 2 month checkup, and weighs about 20.5 pounds now that she's 4 months old.)

The Baby Who Ate Chicago
Originally uploaded by jessamyn8470.

When Katie is not busy eating apartment buildings, she is happy to try to eat my camera.
The Baby Who Wanted to Eat the Camera
Originally uploaded by jessamyn8470.

This is not my photo

But I wish it were. I love this photo! I'd like to hang it on my living room wall so I could look at it while I relaxed. Or on my bedroom wall so I could see it in the morning when I woke up and at night when I was drifting off to sleep.

Grace sure does take some lovely photographs. (You don't mind that I'm linking to your photo, do you, Grace?)

teeny zinnia.
Originally uploaded by romanlily.


The Sears Tower, taken on a warm summer day, while leaning out the window of the car.

The Sears Tower is mighty tall.

(I like how those little blobs of nearby buildings appear in the corners of the picture.)

Originally uploaded by jessamyn8470.

Monday, July 12, 2004

At the Shedd Aquarium (Hilarity Ensued)

As you can see, Geoff and Katie had a great time at the Shedd Aquarium on Saturday (Geoff especially).
At the Shedd Aquarium (Hilarity Ensued)
Originally uploaded by jessamyn8470.